It has been so long since I have last posed anything on here. Heh, a lot has happened in that time, though I would suppose it could be considered a short time by the standards of all life.

I am so excited about the next few months. A lot of great things are going to happen, but the best of all is going to be the birth of my first child. I can only hope that he will be as healthy as his father and I are. The gods have truly blessed me with the chance to have him come into my life. I am lucky for both the baby, and his father. Without them I would still be wandering though life the same way that I have been most of it.

It seems like a lot of things are starting to make more sense now. I've always had these odd reams that I thought were just that, but I am finding slowly that they are just suppressed memories finding their way back to me. Though, I have to admit that these things can be hard to face, I am happy that I am rediscovering them. I believe that later on in life I will be able to accept much more of myself that I was so scared of before. I hope that with relearning these things and rediscovering these parts of my life I can grow and become a better person. At this time I am guessing that I have blocked much of my childhood from my everyday memory. I feel happy to know all these things that are coming back to me, yet at the same time i feel scared. Very scared of them.

Well in just a few more days it will be my Birthday... another year of doing baisacly the same things over and over again...  Though I am glad that this year has brought me someone special and someone who is dear to me... I just wish it would have happened sooner. As the 20th nears I hope That higns will change